When I was born my parents were told that I was a girl, this is back in 1996 when homosexual love had been accepted but were still obviously having troubles with equality. I came from an upper middle class background and family and abuse for some reason was riddled in my family from before I was born to only five years ago when I was thirteen.
I’m not going to lie, when I first found my sexuality I didn’t know what to think of it and thought that it was a disgusting thing but I was at a very young age when I realised that I was sexually attracted to women and even the thought of boys freaked me out. Then as I got older I obviously understood sexuality more and grew to accept it with in myself. I told every at school first and they were completely happy with it though just because I was attracted to girls tried to get me to go out with the only other bisexual girl in the class. But obviously we’re not attracted to everyone that’s the same sexuality as us even straight people.
When I came out to my mum I was literally in tears for some reason because I guess I wasn’t ready to tell her but I knew that I had to. She told me that it was possible that it’s just a phase but if it wasn’t then she’d support me no matter what. My dad wasn’t that happy about it; he ignored it for a while even though I’d told him numerous times. I wasn’t sure what to think but I wasn’t sure whether it was because of my sexuality or whether it was just because of what he thought about females but he’d often raise a hand to me and threaten to hit me if I didn’t shut up when ever homosexuality came into conversation and he’d tell me that he didn’t want gays anywhere near him. Me and mum would make jokes that it’s because he has homosexual tendencies but a part of us knew that it was a major possibility, especially how dead against it he was.
I then found I wasn’t happy in wearing girl clothes all the time, that sometimes I felt masculine and wanted to wear guys clothes sometimes. I enjoy being both genders because I can be a pretty princess one day and then a strong man the next. I sometimes feel like I’m too different from the rest, an omnisexual inter gender. I just feel like if I tell more people, they might think that I’m being a drama queen but I know I’m not. I’m attracted to all genders and I am two genders.
Thank you for reading my story, I know I had a good background but I really hope that this can show that some people are lovely and do understand, I hope the more and more parents become more and more like my own mother.